A few weeks ago, one of the members of our community here inquired about the post I had with recommended news sources. I had unpublished it a few months ago when I no longer felt comfortable recommending people. Over the past several weeks, I’ve remarked frequently to David that the number of people I trust related to current events has been steadily decreasing. For reasons I won’t get into, I’ve been thinking about it a lot the past week.
After lunch today I told David that I had been thinking about taking those categories all down and explained why. But I didn’t because it felt too final and I wasn’t certain I should do it. I watched some episodes of Victoria and continued with the seasonal clothing switch.
And then I saw the confirmation this evening. I took two screen shots and sent them to David. I said, “And that pretty much confirms I’m out. I’m not playing their games any longer.”
People I formerly appreciated and felt were good sources of information have gone wonky over the past several weeks. Other sources have become increasingly vulgar to the point I simply no longer listen or watch. I’ve observed other things going on that make alarm bells go off in my head. Truth be told, there is almost no one I feel comfortable recommending right now. I’m not putting my reputation on the line any longer for people I don’t know.
So it wasn’t one specific event or person. It was a steady drip of things until I hit the proverbial INFJ door slam. I was just done. There was no anger behind it. No excessive emotion. No ranting or anything. I wanted to know what was the right thing to do and it seemed to me that God confirmed it in a way I was not expecting. But I knew I was done.
And that’s why it’s all moved to drafts. If at some point in the future something changes, I can bring them back. I was not taking any more time to sort out which posts could be kept live and which ones I should move to draft. It was all moved.
So that’s why it’s gone.
In the big picture, there is something troubling me that I can’t put my finger on. I’ve mentioned this before as there is something going on related to the Bible. I don’t know what it is. I’m not trying to be vague. I really don’t know what it is. But my gut is telling me something isn’t right and whatever this thing is will be related to the Bible. Standard disclaimer that I’m not a prophet and don’t claim to be a prophet. But something is troubling me and I’ve been increasingly less willing to analyze information and share my thoughts publicly because of it. I don’t want to lead people astray and feel it is better to remain silent at this point.