Last week I wrote about Letting Go of Who You Were to Find Out Who You Are Now. I’ve been thinking about these topics quite a bit lately. In the process, I ran across this quote:
“Because how we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” Annie Dillard
People often talk about how your belongings own you in a sense because everything you bring into your home you have to maintain, take care of, store, etc. I realized that this is also true of this website.
Everything I create I have to maintain. This is something I’ve been discussing with other bloggers, especially those who create products/printables and have been at it since at least 2013 or so. We all find ourselves struggling with sites full of posts, products, printables, free printables, opt-ins, etc. It’s truly overwhelming.
From 2013 to 2019 there were a few significant waves of writing and doing business online. I’ve written at length about all of this in I’m Not Sure What to Say and my Start Here page so I won’t address it again. But during this timeframe I and others created so much stuff. And every single thing we created has to be maintained, updated, uploaded, rebranded, and managed.
A few weeks ago I realized I’m just tired of sitting in front of this computer. The hours and days I spend sitting here are creating my life. And if I’m not really deliberate about those choices, it simply takes on a life of its own.
You may or may not have noticed that I deleted all my 20 Goals for 2020 posts. I decided I’m not going to continue to do them. They took about an hour to create every Wednesday between writing them, finding a photo to purchase, editing, linking related posts, etc. If I continued doing them, 46 precious hours of my life will go just to doing that every week. That’s almost two full days worth of life. Or the equivalent of almost 6 work days based on 8 hours. An entire WEEK of 2020 work time would be devoted just to doing those posts. I realized it was not worth it. They weren’t posts that people were engaging with and I decided that they were done. I’m not willing to devote a week of my life to them. Not at all.
So I’ve been systematically doing the same thing with every product, every post idea, every series idea, etc. I have over 300 products that all need to be updated and then re-uploaded to my site and TPT at a minimum. Even the free Creating Your Cozy Life Planner is a massive undertaking to keep updated. It encompasses 36 posts and 523 pages of printables. That is a massive amount of work for something that is free and only generates a minuscule amount of ad revenue now that ad revenue models and search have drastically changed.
And yet every single post and every single page has to be maintained, updated, uploaded, etc.
It leaves me drowning in minutia and details.
The reality is I’m really a writer more than anything. That’s why I started a blog in 2005. I wanted to write without always having to go through the formal submission process for publication. It was like a whole new world. But I’m a writer drowning in printables and planners and worksheets and posts so I never have time to do what I really want to do which is write new content about meaningful things.
So David and I have been trying to figure out what is worth keeping, what is worth updating, what can be combined, etc. Because this is simply not sustainable long-term.
And it’s not how I want to spend my hours and days creating my life.
So you aren’t seeing much new content here lately and I’m sorry for that. I’m trying to spend less time sitting in front of this computer and more time with my family, my books, and my bed. I’m also trying to streamline and simplify things. We’re working on the 2020-2021 Editable Homeschool Planners and I’m reworking them to make them simpler and easier to handle from year to year.
I’m trying to tackle what feels like an overwhelming task at times, but a necessary task that contributes enough to our family that I can’t just delete it all. It’s a challenging balancing act right now as I find myself wanting to just delete massive amounts of stuff to not have to deal with it, but know that I can’t do that for the most part.
So in-between I relax with politics and coronavirus updates on YouTube so I can post in my forum. LOL!
Laugh or cry, people. It’s one of my mottoes in life. I choose to laugh, even if it is dark humor at times.
So as you are thinking about your time, consider this. As I write this today, there are 315 days left in this year. How you spend one hour each day will add up to the equivalent of 13 full 24 hour days. The choices you make for one hour each day will be the equivalent of how you spend two full weeks of this year.
The way you spend two hours each day is almost a full month of 2020.
And you don’t get them back.
Neither do I.
Choose wisely because those hours are creating your life.