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Parenting and Homeschooling as an Introvert

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“Parenting and Homeschooling as an Introvert” was originally posted August 11, 2012, on my previous blog. Caroline was almost six and I thought that she was an extrovert at the time. I’ve since concluded that she’s more introverted, but did not alter the original post to reflect this. I’m posting it now to add it to my 31 Days of Learning Differently series.

The past few weeks have been hard.  I hit the proverbial wall this week and it all had to do with being so strongly introverted. Parenting and homeschooling as an introvert is hard. On the bright side, I think God allowed me to realize something in the midst of it.

Singleness and childlessness were two of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced.

Parenting is the hardest thing I have ever done.

I struggled with singleness and childlessness.  Those seemingly never-ending years were an important part of my faith journey, and God used both of them in significant ways to shape me as a person.  But in the midst of them I never really felt like I had any control over the situations. I could pray and wait and trust.  It seemed that the overall theme that kept rising in my life was that God was calling me to patience and waiting in the midst of each situation.

But the parenting thing.  This feels different. I’m not waiting on God to move and change something. It’s something I have to get up and do every day. And it is challenging in a completely different way. Yes, I need to rely on His power in my life to parent well.  But it is still different than the paths I walked before. And so far I don’t see an overall theme coming forward to give me encouragement and confidence that I’m on the right path in my thinking about the situation.

The past couple of weeks have been full of people and devoid of any meaningful introvert time for me which is a sure recipe for disaster on pretty much every level.  I started searching for articles online about parenting and introverts and found some gems.  I felt encouraged after reading them if for no other reason than I knew afresh I wasn’t alone.

I thought Why Introverts Fail at Attachment Parenting had some fantastic gems of truth.  Oh my.  A few statements resonated loudly in my weary heart and mind, especially in contrast to so much of what is written about Christian parenting and homeschooling…

To put it simply, being an introvert means that being around other people slowly depletes my energy. I love talking with people, but it is as though I have a word limit both for hearing and for speaking. Once I have exceeded my limit for the day, I begin to lose my ability to be a kind or even polite person. I cannot be around people—any people—24/7. I absolutely have to have alone time to recharge my emotional batteries.

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I am fully convinced that many—if not all—of the parenting experts favored by liberals are extroverts. Extroverts find themselves energized by connection to other people. So it isn’t surprising that extroverted parenting experts have told us that we should be overjoyed at spending every waking minute with our children. Extroverts have a nearly unlimited number of words that they can hear and say in a day, so they have told us to be constantly attentive to what our children say, to engage in every conversation. Extroverts can talk for hours on end, so it seems perfectly reasonable to them that everyone should be able to be tuned into toddler babbling and grade-school chatter for days on end without becoming suicidal or homicidal. Extroverts enjoy being in close physical proximity to other people and can go for days on end without any alone time. So they believe that everyone should be able to be able to wear a baby in a sling, be snuggled up to another person 24/7 without going completely out of their minds. 

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I would argue, however, that the first step to being a good parent is being a self-aware person. It is knowing and honoring your own limits. I believe that we are better parents when we work with our nature rather than against it. For those of us who are introverts, this means that we honor our own need for space, for quiet, for time alone. We do these things not because we are selfish, but because they make us better parents.

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Look at it this way, when we discover that our children have special needs, we move heaven and earth to make the kind of accommodations that will allow them to thrive. Even if we decide that being an introvert handicaps us as a parent, we owe it to ourselves and to our children to make reasonable accommodations for ourselves so that we can thrive as parents.

I also appreciated a discussion I found on Mothering.com that tackled Introversion and Parenting. I related to many of the comments.

I laughed out loud a couple of times while reading Pity the Introvert.  I loved this (and so will my mother-in-law):

A few years ago – well, probably around ten years ago, now that I think about it – one of my older sons asked me what my favorite day of the week was.

“Monday morning,” I said, “When everyone goes away.”

and this comment from a reader named Sue:

The first day of school after a long summer is the highlight of my year. I would walk back to my car saying ‘Free at last, free at last. Thank God Almighty I’m free at last!” Have you ever read ‘Party of One: The Loners Manifesto’ by Anneli Rufus?? Some of it is a stretch but I liked her description about spending hours with friends would leave her feeling drained, like she had donated blood..all day long.

I thought Amy made some really great observations such as:

On days when everyone is around all day, I must stay up later than everyone in order to feel like I exist. I don’t mean that overdramatically, I just mean that my self doesn’t feel really connected until it’s…quiet and I can process stuff in my head.

coupled with this…

My oldest son is an extrovert. I mean…he’s an extreme extrovert. It took me a long time to figure this out. It all finally came together for me in the aftermath of doing one of the Myers-Briggs inventories (for school, of course. So we could all get along, etc.) and observing him during one more aggravating trip to the grocery store in which he could not, would not leave either his brother or sister alone. It finally hit me, “If he’s not interacting with someone, he doesn’t feel alive. ” And I grasped the corollary of that which was that I feel most alive when I’m alone. And we were going to have to figure out a way to co-exist.

This is EXACTLY where I am with mothering Caroline. Bless her little extroverted, only child heart… She wants interaction ALL. DAY. LONG. The other day we took her to the Children’s Museum in the morning and then we ran some errands.  When we got home mid-afternoon, her tank must have been full because she actually went into the learning room and was fully engaged A.LONE. for the better part of an hour. I vacillated between total shock and thanksgiving. But it took all of the attention from me AND David until three in the afternoon before she got to that point. We simply cannot do that every day.

And bedtime… If she doesn’t have her word and interaction quota met… She CANNOT go to sleep or stay in bed. Drives me nuts to no end.

And, yet, I’m the same way on the opposite end of the spectrum.  It’s past midnight and I should be in bed. I want to be in bed. But I’m sitting here typing because it is finally quiet and I can finally find a way to bring some life back into my introverted self. I can’t go to bed until I’ve had my introvert time.  She can’t go to bed until she gets her extrovert time.

I have no idea how this is going to work. I’ve asked myself more than a few times lately if I am simply incapable of homeschooling and being a healthy person. And yet I believe with every fiber of my being that homeschooling is the best thing for Caroline even though she is an extrovert.

No answers tonight. Just some thoughts put to electronic paper so I can quiet my own mind and go to sleep.  🙂

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  • The older I get, the more extreme my introverted side becomes. I’m often accused of being an extrovert because of my occasional public speaking but alas, I’m a true INTJ. I crave, crave, crave alone time. I’m totally introverted.

    And as time goes by the stronger that side of me becomes. I think it just has to do with getting older & wiser and figuring out that people don’t hold the answers or any real comfort. My disillusionment with mankind (and I say that in the nicest way) makes me more introverted.

    Which is often hard when you’re homeschooling 3 kids. We stay home. A LOT. I don’t do this and that activity anymore. I don’t go to homeschool “support” groups because I figured out real quick they’re mainly a measuring stick for everyone else to feel better about themselves/their kids/etc. Or a gossip squad. Very little support.

    I loved the Monday Morning quote above – it is so true!

  • Lindsey – Just thinking out loud here… Do you think you are more introverted because you are getting older or because the world is getting more stressful? Or because your world has gotten more demanding?

    I also feel like I have become much more introverted over the past ten years or so, but I’m not completely sure why. I think the world has gotten so much more complicated and that does contribute to it on some level. Or maybe I’ve just always been this introverted, but I never had as many demands on my time and energy so I feel it more acutely now. I’ve always been perfectly happy to spend hours every day alone, even when I was a child. (But not all day!) I always wanted to be by myself during recess to read a book or something in elementary school. People were always telling me to go play with the other kids and I didn’t want to do that. I wanted to be alone, even then.

    When I was a teacher I remember the principal making the point that planning time was for planning and working, not taking a break. I never used all of my planning time for planning. If I had done that, I would have never made it through the day. And, frankly, as long as I was doing my job I didn’t think it mattered when I did my planning. If I wanted to take it home in the evening, what did it matter as long as it got done?

    People who aren’t far over on the introversion end of things would probably have a hard time understanding this, but I’ve become more convinced than ever that introverts often suffer because people around them just don’t get it. Thankfully I have a husband who does and a daughter who is starting to get it. 🙂

    I’ve got a post about introverted women and church to put up, hopefully tomorrow. 🙂

  • Someone tried to post this but couldn’t get the Captcha to work so here is her comment:

    Oh Sallie, thank you for this post too.

    I have a 17 month old son, and while I love him with all of my heart, I have really struggled with accepting the mother that I am. I am an introvert; I need my space. I am not the super playful mother, but I am the mother who makes sure that he always has everything he needs. It’s hard to recognize and accept our limits as people, but even more so for mothers because it is our ‘highest calling’ and supposedly the only thing that brings us meaning in life. :S

    Thank you for articulating that parenting is about the parents as well as the child(ren). The relationship has to work for both parties, not just the child.

    Blessings to all 3 of you as you figure out how to navigate through life together! 🙂

  • I’m not the super playful mother either. I’ve never been into pretending and open-ended imaginative play even though I think both are really important for children. Now if we’re talking board games or coloring… I’m your girl! And I’ll read books until my voice gives out. Thankfully David IS more playful, but unfortunately he ends bearing the bigger part of that load which sometimes makes me feel badly. I will play with Caroline, but I would rather DO something with her, if you know what I mean. I’d rather go shopping, go to the library, do a specific craft, etc.

    I’ve come to accept that I’ll never be seen as the “fun” parent. David is the “fun” parent in our household. I’m the one who will make sure she gets a good education, invests in her spiritual life, helps her find her calling, and tries to guide her to learn to make good choices for herself. Eventually she will appreciate my contributions as much as David’s play. 🙂

  • Really good questions Sallie and I have to say I don’t know, but I bet all 3 scenarios play a role in my upped-introvertedness. I think the world is more difficult. It has to play a role in it, I think. The constant relying on technology makes it worse for me, I think. I feel like half my relationships aren’t really “real” and I crave solitude because I just don’t trust people. For instance, I never talk to my brother & sister in law because they’re just “too busy”. The only way they communicate with us is by text message. EVER. And we see them at Christmas, and that’s it. It feels so superficial, so why try to “bond” with them, even if they are family? I could talk about this forever, I think.

    When I was a kid (an only child too) I remember all my friends would go spend the night with each other for days on end – like for a whole weekend. I could not do that. Ever. First, my parents wouldn’t let me, but beyond that I didn’t WANT to. One night at a friends house was enough for me and sent me into sensory overload. I absolutely wanted to go home and be in my space, alone, with my things. I always felt a little odd about that…but looking back, I see it was my introverted side.

  • didn’t mean to say “I think” quite so much 🙂 Was typing while interrupted 77 times…

    Yes, the demands are much higher on me these days. Gotta play a role too!

  • Sallie, I think you and I are very similar and my husband and yours are very similar. My DH is definitely my son’s favourite parent now, but I also hope that one day my son will appreciate me too.

    Thanks for the validation that I am normal! (relatively speaking, of course…)

  • I need a minimum of an hour a day alone–though I’ll take much more than that if I can get it. But sometimes if I have too much time away from dealing with small children, I have a very hard time transitioning back into it. I find that breastfeeding, etc. help me to cope somewhat, because they promote bonding hormones that mellow me out a little. Also, my spending attachment time alone with the youngest has forced the older two to be a little more independent of me. I’m glad that they have each other to talk to!!

  • My Youngest is an extreme extrovert, the rest of us are introverts. I feel so bad for him sometimes. (other times I can’t muster the energy to feel bad because he drained it all) it really helps when he goes over to my brothers house to help with my neices. their youngest is also an extrovert and it seems like they only need each other to fill up their interaction buckets.
    maybe a young neighbor or another homeschooler could come over and interact with Caroline for a couple of hours a week. could be a win win for you and the other childs mother. I don’t think I could have survived my sons toddlerhood if he had been an only. Maybe a pet would help. my son spends hours talking to his dog.

    Heidi

  • Frankly, Sallie, even as an “extrovert”, I still can’t take non-stop activity and noise all-day, every-day as a mom. I still need down time. And all the kids… even my over-the-top extroverts do too. Truth be told, we are all (even the most off-the-charts extrovert, or the most off-the-charts introvert) better off to have some time with people, interacting meaningfully, and better off to have some time in silence/solitude. Both every day if possible. We have consistently had a daily quiet time for this purpose.

    It is simply unhealthy for any parent or child to either (a) cut themselves off from people and be emotionally detached or unavailable, or (b) be completely enmeshed with another person and be unable to spend time in silence/solitude. It is healthy for both parents and kids to have both… time for connection and time for reflection.

    All of our children (and I have some extremes… one child who is very introverted, and three children –that I can tell so far, as I haven’t yet decided about the 2yo– who are extroverts, one of whom is fantastically extroverted) benefit from having quiet time daily. And so do I. I can’t imagine being a mother without some silence to myself on a regular basis. And again, I’m saying that as a lifelong extrovert. We are all better off. I don’t just think this is an issue for introverts, I think it’s a matter of balance and healthiness in any/every family. Everyone needs to learn to yield to the needs of others, including children realizing that their mom/dad are people and also get overwhelmed, tired, stressed, and have needs, etc. That, to me, is part of the refining process God intends for us as family members, sharpening and shaping one another in daily life.

    Blessings,
    Jess

  • Oh bless you lady for these words! Someone shared this post on Facebook & I’m so glad!! We have homeschooled for 8 years & only over the past year has it started to dawn on me why it often feels like it’s going to kill me. It seemed like no one understood! My husband & I married at 21-22 years old. Three blissful years of just us then as I graduated with my elementary education degree I also carried our first child. Over the next 8 years or so 4 more babies came. Along with the babies my thyroid gave out, severe exhaustion was my normal & depression came & went. Also, I started homeschooling the oldest when she was 4. Over the past few years I have discovered about myself that I am highly sensitive, an introvert (knew that from childhood), and an INFJ-T. For most of the homeschooling years we lived in another state than my parents. She would have helped me if she could. She would have taken the children occasionally to help me stay sane. Instead I lived across the street from my mother-in-law who doesn’t get me. She’s never offended to watch the children for the sake of me taking care of me. She’ll watch them for dr appointments, things like that, but she doesn’t understand the desperate need for quiet & alone. My husband tries to help as much as possible but he works & is needed so much in church that I feel so guilty asking for more time for ME. I want him & I to have time together, but that happens occasionally. I don’t talk about all this anywhere else because I don’t want to be the complainy pants. I’ve leaned that if I go into my room during our daily quiet time after lunch & listen to white noise that I can make it through the day. I love my life, my children, my Savior. I wouldn’t trade it. I’m determined to learn how to take care of me as I am, not as how I think I ought to be Or as I perceive others think I ought to be but as I am. I’ve longed for someone to really understand what my life is like & felt that for those minutes as I read your post. Please excuse the excessive comment, if it even loads. Introverts unite! In our separate rooms of course:)

  • Mary,

    I’m SO GLAD you found this post and it encouraged you! It is hard when you are doing it alone without a strong support network around you.

    You mentioned your husband spends a lot of time helping at church. Is there any way he can back off some of those commitments in order to free you up more and give you more time together? I’m a firm believer that our family is our first ministry, especially when our children are little.

    Don’t ever feel badly for taking care of yourself. It’s not selfish. It’s a true need, especially for people who are highly sensitive and introverted. People who aren’t that way truly don’t understand what it is like to live in that kind of a body/mind. With so many little ones needing you, you need to take care of yourself so you can be there for them. Adding in health problems makes it even more important.

    I hope you will look around my site. I have quite a few encouraging posts for moms, introverts, etc.

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