Truth be told, it’s been a long few weeks, full of quite a bit of emotion for both me and David. All day I kept thinking today was Friday. I don’t know why. But New Year’s Eve seems like a lifetime ago.
There was the emotional trauma of taking down the Christmas tree and other decorations today. Ok, maybe not emotional trauma, but I always find it kind of hard to take the tree down. We still have no snow and when I checked my rose bushes on this balmy 50 degree day, THEY HAD LEAVES GROWING OUT THE ENDS. You’ve got to be kidding me! I decided I’m going to take pity on the planters of icicle pansies I have and start watering them. They probably would be four times the size they are now if I hadn’t stopped watering them this fall.
We’re getting our taxes done on Monday and anyone who has had their own business and a baby in the same year will understand the unique challenge that is. (In other words, we’re behind on our paperwork since Caroline was born.) This has also been by far, BY WAY FAR, the very worst year we’ve ever had or ever conceived we would have in the five years we’ve had our business. Between adding our new little tax deduction (Caroline) and our very less than stellar business year, we’re really wondering what the accountant will show us. Should be interesting. But as anyone knows who has experienced it, challenging financial times are very draining.
And this is the week we are taking steps to protect me from becoming pregnant again. (I’m trying to be tactful.) This will merit its own post at some point as a follow-up to our birth story. So many ladies left great comments there and I wanted to respond in another post which I plan on doing sometime soon. But I have been surprised by how hard this decision has been. David has been steadfast and I’m the one whose waffled more times that I care to admit. I’m thankful for a husband who is interested in my health and well-being more than he is in trying to have as many children as he can. There’s lots more I’ll write about this, but in another post. In any case, this has been very emotionally draining as well the past few weeks.
And all this stuff has impacted my spiritual life (well, not the Christmas tree and lack of snow) which has also left me feeling rather low and actually a little depressed if I’m honest with myself.
So, we’re kind of tired.
I’m not sure how much blogging I’ll be doing this weekend or when I’ll be able to catch up on comments and emails. So if things are kind of quiet around here, you’ll know that we’re trying to rest and catch our breath. 🙂